Rant time

[calie15]

So this was spurred on by the post recent GREAT chlollie pic. I'm dying. I feel like a tween waiting for her favorite couple to make out, not mother and wife with responsibilities. =) Which kind of led me to a though. I haven't been with my husband very long. Six and a half years. I'm 27. But he has NO idea what I really write about. I mean he knows I write stories, and he kind of knows Smallville, but that's it. He kind of makes me antsy f he gets to close to my monitor. He wouldn't make fun of me, but I still feel a bit silly. So today he was like 'Can't you just get off the computer for once' and I'm thinking nooooo way. Of course he asks why and I don't want to tell him that I'm just this crazy fangirl that enlarges pictures to see every bit of Oliver in that picture of Chloe shooting the arrow. He gets sooooo annoyed at how much I'm on the computer at night and how much late I stay on. I mean is it really that bad to like something so much? I like to write.

When I was a bit younger I started college with the intention to write, then I realized I wasn't that great at it, so now I'm a planner (urban planner, not like party planner lol). But you know I enjoy it. It's kind of like an escape for me, writing what I want. What else can you create so many possibilities with? I kind of hate it when you come across authors that are dead set against people creating fiction based off of their stories. It almost kind of puts me off to reading that authors story. Which is why I LOVE JK Rowling. She encourages it, and that is very admirable of her. That shows you she really understand to be regular person wanting to write. that she can actually feel flattery at someone wanting to use her ideas and not feel like she has been stolen from. None of us make money off of this, we just enjoy it. If I wanted money then I would have finished my English major.

As it happened though I was a shitty English major. I wrote horrible papers. I never put commas in the right spot and misspell things all the time. on top of it whenever my teacher wanted me to break down a particular short story or poem I was always wrong. It never failed. I never perceived it the right way. It wasn't until I was failing my Shakespeare class that I realized I sucked at it. Every week the teacher would give us four lines of a play to break down and describe what it meant in a couple of paragraphs. According to him I was always wrong. It wasn't for lack of trying. I guess I was just to stupid in his opinion to get it correct. Of course I'd rather be to stupid then be an ugly little midget with a nasty comb over. Bleh. I'd love for him to come through our planning department so I could tell him to take his site plans and shove them. He didn't succeed in teaching me anything, but sure did help in making me drop out that semester. Well and I was failing Spanish. Planning degrees don't require Spanish though thanks god. Oh and well, it didn't help that I was going out five nights a week. Did you know how easy it is to find ladies night every day of the week in New Orleans. EASY. I screwed up, but looking back on it now, he was still an ass. I hope he lost all his hair.

So my intention of this rant was a question, if anyone even read this or got this far. Do yall tell your other family members or friends about your crazy ship obsession? Whether it's just being interested in it and posting, or making fanvids, or fanart, or fanfiction.

Comments

[kryptolori.livejournal.com]

Mmm sounds like were in a similar boat lol, they know I'm an SV fan and my hubbie knows I go on the forums ans stuff but he no clue how much I *squee* like a fangirl when I see something like that pic yesterday lol. He also complains about how much I'm on the pc and how late I stay up lol

[cking1575.livejournal.com]

I tell my friends and family that I write and post fan fiction. And not to mention that I am totally addicted to reading it, but I only let a few selected friends read my fics. I doubt that they'd make fun of me but I really don't want to take that chance. The only one who complained that I am always on the computer is my daughter who at the time wanted to use the computer...that was until I got her, her own laptop, now she doesn't care how long I am on the computer for. LOL

Anyway, I completely understand your dilemma, but maybe this is something that you can share with your hubby. Let him read some of your fics...let him see how talented a writer you are. Let him read some of the comments that we post to your fics. Show him our Chlollie world...invite him into it...he probably won't stay long. He probably won't understand the fangirl aspect of our obsession with Chlollie but at least if you share your fics with him he may not feel so left out...he's probably missing you and spending time with you. I understand how easy it is to get so caught up in this online world that we have created for ourselves but sometimes the RL has to invade.

Oh and your previous teacher, he sounds like a right ole ass!I, too, hope all his hair falls out for the way he treated his student.

Anyway, HUGZ Hunny. Hope everything works out on your end because I soooo don't want to see you stop writing, especially Chlollie. :D

[kc-2009.livejournal.com]

They only one who knows Im on forums and all that stuff is my nephew. I doubt my friends could understand why Im so addicted to a tv show,that I participated in fan forums and that I even make fanart of it and that I, like you, squee like a girl at the simple look of a cap of my fav ship.

[calie15.livejournal.com]

I know yesterday I was a nut. My husband asked me to get off last night and I was like 'I can't!!!!!' I'm always up soooo late. Like three in the morning. He usually passes out on the sofa at midnight.

[calie15.livejournal.com]

I don't think he'd make fun of it. Just makes me antsy. Like he sits by me and I turn around. And as I was typing this he literally just did it on purpose lol. Eh, I don't think he'd get it. My mom knows I write it, but she has never read it.

[calie15.livejournal.com]

I think my friends would think I was a nut. They wouldn't get how invested I am in a TV show.

[eeyore840.livejournal.com]

I'm a teacher and an aspiring writer. I'm in the process of completing my second writing course. I originally watched Smallville with my kids, but quickly became disillusioned with the writing and lack of continuity. My focus is more of a technical, storytelling perspective than anything else.

My husband knows that I comment on forums. He used to watch Smallville with us until around Season 7 when he lost interest and said the show was stupid. He listens to me rant about the bad writing and characterization. Sometimes he complains about the time I spend on the computer, and when he does, I make a point of spending more time with him and less online.

[gen717.livejournal.com]

I don't tell too much to my family about my crazy ship obsessions. But a little bit. My sisters and I are very close, so they know I write stories. They don't watch SV, but I've sent pics of Chlollie and one of my sisters adores JH too. The other sister knows about my Arthur/Gwen obsession, and I've sent her links to videos. Now that "Merlin" will be hopefully airing on SyFy, she and her husband will probably watch it, because they enjoy that type of program, and are fans of Legend of the Seeker.

Yes, it's embarrassing, and I don't talk about it too much. Some of my work friends know that I've written fanfic, and some of them have asked for links so they can read my stories, and those that have read them, said they liked them. (I did turn one of my co-workers on to "Merlin" and she's watched all the episodes online due to my urging, lol, so at least there is someone I can sort of fangirl with at work once in awhile.)

Okay now here's something even more embarrassing for me.. You're 27, and worried about sounding like a Tween. I'm 47, and really have no business fangirling like a 12 year old at all. I'm not married and my kids are 17 and 16 (yeah they know about my obsessions, but they don't mind it, or they tease me about it a little, but good-naturedly at least.)

I do think though that sometimes I need to step away from the computer, in order to have some kind of balance. It's so easy to become submerged in this stuff, especially since for me it's become a refuge from the stress I deal with at work. I still do have a real life, and family that needs taking care of. So in those times I start to feel as though I'm neglecting things, I do take a break, even if it's a short one. :)

[calie15.livejournal.com]

That's why I like it. It's kind of like a break.

Well one day I'll be 47, and I'm sure I'll still be obsessed. =)

I am a bit nutty about it. Reading stories on my phone when I get my updates. Searching spoilers at work. In college I would get bored and just start writing in class. Needless to say I didn't always get the notes I needed. But it was ridiculous. I had notebooks and binders full of just random stuff I'd written.

[bella8876.livejournal.com]

Also 27 years old here, not married, no kids but no one in my family or my friends knows anything about my fanfiction. They know I like to write but they don't really know what. I've always been a little weary of letting them read my stuff anyway so it doesn't seem weird to anyone that they don't get to see my stories.

I've never told anyone about my Chlollie (or Chlean) obsession, they know I like Smallville and that I get frustrated with the writing but no one else watches it so I can't even talk with them about it.

The thing is, every now and then it feels kind of weird to me, you know that I have this whole other life that they know absolutely nothing about. That I have all of these stories out there that they've never read.

I remember finishing up on "Just Married", creating that whole fake magazine and I was so excited about how it turne out, how awesome the finished product was I wanted to show it to everyone but then I realized that I'd have to tell them that it was for a fanfiction, then explain what that was, then explain why I spent over forty hours creating a fake magazine for a fake story for a fake couple.

Sometimes I want to tell them but I know they'll think it's stupid and make fun of me so I don't. It sounds slightly morbid, I know, but I have all these folders and notebooks full of stuff I've written for so many different fandoms and I have these panic attacks that something will happen to me and my family will find these things and just stare at them and go "WTF!"

Maybe one day I'll work up the courage to tell someone else but probably not today.

[calie15.livejournal.com]

I can totally relate to everything you just said. My mom and husband know I write, and he even knows it's about Smallville, but that is about it. And you know I think he is interested, especially considering that I spend soooo much time reading and writing fanfiction. But I guess I just feel a bit silly and embarrassed that I put so much time into these fictional character.

I feel bad you couldn't share your fake magazine with anyone. It was really good. I mean I don't do fanart, but I know to do something really good it isn't easy. And is very tedious.

And I know what you mean about not wanting anyone to find your stuff. If my husband needs to use my laptop I minimize everything and close it out. If I forget something I get all antsy.

I to used to have notebooks filled with stories. When I was still in college I would be writing stories in the middle of class in by binders that were supposed to be for taking notes. I've thrown away the notebooks since then, just because they're old, not anything I'm interested in, or wasn't that good. But I would write a story and then come home and type it up.

My folder on my laptop for writing is huge. I have so many pieces of stuff I've written but never did anything with.

It does feel a bit weird to me too. I mean considering how often I'm on, and how often I see other chlollie people on, I know I'm not alone. But it's like I'm leading this secret life lol.

I mean I could only imagine what my husband would think if he knew I was writing smut. lol

[bella8876.livejournal.com]

I know. I get twitchy whenevery anyone wants to use my computer because I'm positive that they'll go digging and find my stories and then point and laugh.

I've always wondered how one would start that conversation anyway. How do you explain to someone that you are a fanfiction writer? It's kind of crazy. But it's good to know I'm not the only one who keeps this little habit a secret. We should start a support group.

Fanfiction Writers Who's Families Don't Know They're Fanfiction Writers.

On an unrelated note I've been meaning for a while to compliment you on your icon. Go Saints! (I'm just up the I-10 from you in Baton Rouge).

[calie15.livejournal.com]

An IT guy at my work fixed my laptop a couple of times. I was freaking out. Especially since it was a corrupted story that screwed it up one time. I was so freaked out about it that I couldn't even write anymore of the story. lol

Oh that is close! I live just outside New Orleans actually, in Kenner if you know where that is. I'm not usually a big football fan, but everyone has gone so nuts it has kind of rubbed off. Plus my husband is a Saints fanatic, so at this point I have no choice but to watch ESPN and the NFL network four hours after we get home. He has flooded our DVR with random recordings about the Saints.

[ladyhawke01.livejournal.com]

First you teacher sounded not like a very good teacher if he only pointed out what was wrong instead of teaching/explaining to you why he thought you were wrong.

Second I lik your writing and I am glad you are a Chlollie shippere.

Now I am not married, but I do have some friends who know I like Smallville and watch it and some do know I go on the some forums. But they don't know is often I go on forums, that I am bit obseessed with Chlollie, and that I even wrote a fan fiction story. I don't think any of my friends would judge me for it or anything because we all have different interests/hobbies that not all of us share, I just feel like its my little thing and I don't think they would completely understand unlike the people who comment on the LJ and other forums because we have the same slightly obsessive interest. We all SQUEEED when we saw the Warrior screencap with Chloe and Oliver and it was nice to go to the LJ and share that great feeling with everybody.

[ashbail256.livejournal.com]

My family doesn't really get my love of this show or this ship. But my sis turned me on to SV, so she lets me talk her to death about Chloe and Oliver. She waits till they're on dvd to watch. But she'll still let me ramble on and on about my fav fan fics. I'm so glad I found all these communities full of people who feel like I do. I have to say I'm glad you spend a lot of time at your computer, cause I get to read your awesome stories, and that makes me very happy.